If Any Desires Wisdom…

…ask God, who bestows it to all generously, and without embarrassing the one who asks…and it will be given to them.

James 1:5

Wisdom means to empathically experience God.

This is a gift.

It is a sole matter of God’s action, not of human choice.

It is a fruit of God’s generosity, not a reward that comes from the diligence of people.

It is an indication of God’s love, not the social engineering of human enterprise.

It is the outcome of God’s quest for each person, not the outcome of people’s search for God.

But let them ask in faith…without doubt…

James 1:6

And what, precisely, does it mean to ask in faith for faith?

It means to perpetually take up residence in an estate of helplessness…utter helplessness.

…in which all is given up

…in which all activity ceases

…in which all answers are unknown

…unattempted

…in which all questions are unarticulated and left derelict

…in which you stand alone in the world

…vulnerable…as we truly are

…in which the alienation we have with one another, and brokenness we have within ourselves, is actualized

…in which we know ourselves to be most honestly experienced in wilderness

…in which we find daily helplessness in the face of demise and death

But in spite of this it is not to despair.  Because the one who despairs substitutes planned death as an idol for God.

To find wisdom is to give up on idealizing death on par with giving up on trying to pick oneself up by learning much, acquiring property, grasping power, raising a family, making money, being loyal, being honest, being charitable, being kind, being virtuous, abstaining from vice, and indulging in good works.

The very search for God is itself a denial of God.

No one can experience God who has not descended into utter, actual helplessness for which only God can help.

And of this there is no place for double-mindedness.